May 2, 2010
Someone said 'I love you' to me today. My sky should have turned all pink and lit up with fireworks. Should have.
I just said thank you.
I wanted so much to make that person feel special but I just couldn't bring myself to say 'I love you, too'.
I feel love but it's for someone else entirely out of my league, out of my reach and out of my sight. K is all that and I love him. In so many twisted ways that I could not explain, I love him. And every minute I spend catching up with him is a minute I want to freeze into eternity. I don't ever want to stop.
We talk almost everyday now. And so I was wrong about saying that it was the end of K.
Apparently, that day I got roaring drunk was not the end of the story. The next chapters are painfully unfolding. And now I'm chicken-shit about saying something that might scare him away.
Something like 'I miss you' and even 'I love you'.
Someone said 'I love you' to me today. My sky should have turned all pink and lit up with fireworks. Should have.
I just said thank you.
I wanted so much to make that person feel special but I just couldn't bring myself to say 'I love you, too'.
I feel love but it's for someone else entirely out of my league, out of my reach and out of my sight. K is all that and I love him. In so many twisted ways that I could not explain, I love him. And every minute I spend catching up with him is a minute I want to freeze into eternity. I don't ever want to stop.
We talk almost everyday now. And so I was wrong about saying that it was the end of K.
Apparently, that day I got roaring drunk was not the end of the story. The next chapters are painfully unfolding. And now I'm chicken-shit about saying something that might scare him away.
Something like 'I miss you' and even 'I love you'.
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